I love to drink coffee. I love the warmth of it as it goes down my throat. I love that my daughters are incredible coffee makers. Seriously, they can put out a great tasting pot of coffee. I love them.
I love my husband. I love the way he takes care of me. He is my best friend, and I know that is so cliche', but he honestly is. He made me a laptop...he worked on it non-stop for 3 days, just to make it work for me. He knew I would love it. He was right.
I love the sound of the rain outside. I don't like having to get in and out of it all day long. I learned that today. Long day.
I am super excited about going to a conference that we signed up for. I feel kind of grown up just saying that I am going to a conference. Why do I still feel like I am 16 sometimes? Does a 30 year old woman actually admit to "feeling grown up" about something?
My husband came to a conclusion about himself today. One that makes me very proud of him. I still can't believe it but he says it is true and I am going to take him at his word. I know his commitment to God is his highest priority and he says this falls in line with that. Who am I to question? I love him...he is a great man.
I got some hard news over the weekend. It, I'm afraid, is going to shake things up in our lives. Hopefully, it is something that we can all deal with by putting our trust in God. How else do you get through things if you don't? I feel so sorry for the people that don't have that to fall back on. He gives us scripture after scripture to help get us through difficult times. He knew we would need it, a lot. Thank you, Lord, for that. Maybe my next post will be scriptures that bring me comfort. I need quiet time to do that though, so more likely my next post will be about meaningless things like laundry and my love for coffee. I will get to it, though...if for anything else, to remind me of them.
I am reading a book by Max Lucado called Facing Your Giants. This purchase was an impulse buy at Mardel's a month or so ago. Literally, I jumped out of line, ran to the display, grabbed it and put it on the counter. Daniel thought I was crazy, but he knows me well enough to know not to be surprised. How How How, if not for God directly calling me to grab that book, was I to know how much that book would help me out months later? He knew I would need it. He leads me to put the book down so that I will read the next chapter just at the right time, when it will comfort me the most. The pages I read today, would not have affected me the same way had I read them Friday. I love God.
This blog post could not be more random...but that is just how I am feeling right now.
My children are gifts...each one of them brings me something different each day, that sets them apart from each other and makes me love them more and more. How is that even possible?
Good night...
Monday, September 14, 2009
Monday, September 7, 2009
MSG
We have finally figured out that I have an intolerance to MSG (monosodium glutimate.) I wouldn't call it severe, but it definitly showed up in different symptoms. Nausea, headaches and migraines, itching on my legs and chest, phlem buildup and asthmatic attacks. When I had my first asthmatic type reaction, it finally woke us up to trying to figure out what could be causing it all. Someone mentioned to me that it could be msg, so we started researching it and all of my symptoms were listed there, plain as day. We thought we would go msg free for awhile and see if it helped. It has been a little over a week now and I have had no symptoms since, so it has been great. I feel so much better, feel healthier already and our meals have changed for the better.
It hasn't been easy to find food. I pretty much had to completley change the way I think about food. It was so discouraging at first and kind of depressing to see all the food we love so much full of msg, or other ingredients that they list to hide msg. It is going to be much more inconvenient and probably quite a bit more expensive for a lot of things, but I know we can do it. After only a week, we have decided that it won't be as hard to find food we love that we first thought. We have already introduced a variety of things, so it won't be the same stuff all the time. Oh yeah, and I had to throw away SO many of my seasonings and worchestire sauce too. I cook with that ALL the time. I can't wait to have some more money though, because I have found that Mrs. Dash has a LOT of different seasonings that are completley msg free...just pure spices and herbs. AND I have found a fantabulous homeade tomato sauce recipe that I am anxious to try, once we have more money...tomatos are expensive! I have never really bought them before! ha! I may have to encourage Daniel to plant a garden again this next summer. I want to learn how to can and put stuff up. I'll have to get my mom to teach me how.
Some things that I love dearly that I have to give up: Juan Pablos, tortillas, 99% of chips, chicken nuggets, corn dogs, buttery popcorn, pretty much every fast food...and the list goes on and on. I HAVE found that I can eat at Braum's if I don't eat many fries and I can eat at Subway if I eat carefully. Those of you who know me well, know how much I love to eat out. In fact, that could be a whole other blog post. I have decided to really cut down on eating out, as it has become an addiction for me. Don't laugh...I am serious. I can't do it alone, I am TOO weak, but I am praying continually for God to help me defeat it. It may be a daily struggle for the rest of my life. By the way, random thought, read Max Lucado's Facing Your Giants. I am in the middle of it and it has already changed my thinking. I THINK what I was getting at, but got away from, was that this whole msg thing is going to pretty much eliminate my going out to eat, which is so hard for me...it's an emotional thing, more than anything.
For some reason, at the same time I have given up msg, my coffee cravings have picked up. I have really enjoyed my coffee this past week...I hope THAT doesn't become an addiction too! :-)
I am lucky to have my wonderful, sweet and loving husband to help me get through this. He has studied up on it just as much, if not more, than I have. He is going msg free too, as are our kids for the most part. I am not going to forbid them to have msg, because there are so many things they love that I just couldn't bring myself to not let them have. But cutting down, for sure.
It really is a terrible chemical. I wish more people were educated about it. I can't believe I am just now learning about the harmful effects of it. In fact, msg is probably a HUGE reason why fast food has become an unhealthy addiction for me. Sadly, if it weren't for the side effects and symptoms that I have, even knowing about it, I probably wouldn't have cared.
Well, I need to finish loading the dishwasher, boo. Later.
It hasn't been easy to find food. I pretty much had to completley change the way I think about food. It was so discouraging at first and kind of depressing to see all the food we love so much full of msg, or other ingredients that they list to hide msg. It is going to be much more inconvenient and probably quite a bit more expensive for a lot of things, but I know we can do it. After only a week, we have decided that it won't be as hard to find food we love that we first thought. We have already introduced a variety of things, so it won't be the same stuff all the time. Oh yeah, and I had to throw away SO many of my seasonings and worchestire sauce too. I cook with that ALL the time. I can't wait to have some more money though, because I have found that Mrs. Dash has a LOT of different seasonings that are completley msg free...just pure spices and herbs. AND I have found a fantabulous homeade tomato sauce recipe that I am anxious to try, once we have more money...tomatos are expensive! I have never really bought them before! ha! I may have to encourage Daniel to plant a garden again this next summer. I want to learn how to can and put stuff up. I'll have to get my mom to teach me how.
Some things that I love dearly that I have to give up: Juan Pablos, tortillas, 99% of chips, chicken nuggets, corn dogs, buttery popcorn, pretty much every fast food...and the list goes on and on. I HAVE found that I can eat at Braum's if I don't eat many fries and I can eat at Subway if I eat carefully. Those of you who know me well, know how much I love to eat out. In fact, that could be a whole other blog post. I have decided to really cut down on eating out, as it has become an addiction for me. Don't laugh...I am serious. I can't do it alone, I am TOO weak, but I am praying continually for God to help me defeat it. It may be a daily struggle for the rest of my life. By the way, random thought, read Max Lucado's Facing Your Giants. I am in the middle of it and it has already changed my thinking. I THINK what I was getting at, but got away from, was that this whole msg thing is going to pretty much eliminate my going out to eat, which is so hard for me...it's an emotional thing, more than anything.
For some reason, at the same time I have given up msg, my coffee cravings have picked up. I have really enjoyed my coffee this past week...I hope THAT doesn't become an addiction too! :-)
I am lucky to have my wonderful, sweet and loving husband to help me get through this. He has studied up on it just as much, if not more, than I have. He is going msg free too, as are our kids for the most part. I am not going to forbid them to have msg, because there are so many things they love that I just couldn't bring myself to not let them have. But cutting down, for sure.
It really is a terrible chemical. I wish more people were educated about it. I can't believe I am just now learning about the harmful effects of it. In fact, msg is probably a HUGE reason why fast food has become an unhealthy addiction for me. Sadly, if it weren't for the side effects and symptoms that I have, even knowing about it, I probably wouldn't have cared.
Well, I need to finish loading the dishwasher, boo. Later.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
First Day of School
Tomorrow is the first day of school. Such a significant day. A fresh start...not just for the children, but for me as a mom. It's a chance to do better, to be a better mom. I hate to be away from the girls everyday for so long, but I will cherish the time it will allow me to spend alone with Mac.
I have found myself thinking of Foster a lot tonight. I'm not sure why. My heart is aching for him. I'm ready to hold him close and love him. I hope he is safe tonight. I hope for so many things for him, but know that for him to find his way to me, those things won't likely happen. That feels like an incredible burden on my soul. How can I hope for him so much when by doing so means he that he has been suffering? I pray that his birth mom will give him up without hurting him.
I use the word "well" too much. Random thought.
I have found myself thinking of Foster a lot tonight. I'm not sure why. My heart is aching for him. I'm ready to hold him close and love him. I hope he is safe tonight. I hope for so many things for him, but know that for him to find his way to me, those things won't likely happen. That feels like an incredible burden on my soul. How can I hope for him so much when by doing so means he that he has been suffering? I pray that his birth mom will give him up without hurting him.
I use the word "well" too much. Random thought.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
First Post...
So many people have these blogs. I'm not really a "blogger," but I love to read other people's. I'm still asking myself why I started one...I don't really think there are very many people that care what I'm doing, since it isn't much! Maybe I started it just to talk to myself, I'm not sure. I guess if that is why, then I'm fine with that. Sometimes I just need to clear my head and maybe this will help me do that.
I have had a real problem lately, well for a long time, with racing thoughts. All the time. During the day, but mostly at night in bed, which I'm sure everyone has problems with from time to time. I find myself thinking of so many things all the time, at the same time, that I forget to spend enough time on the important things. Most importantly, spending time with the kids with no outside distractions. Like tv, for instance. It's hard for me to concentrate, really concentrate on them if the tv is on in the background. I have become dependant on noise. Is that strange? Like coffee or soda, I crave distraction. I wonder why that is...I think I'll think about this for awhile and see what I come up with. I have to go now and pick up the girls from school. Later...
I have had a real problem lately, well for a long time, with racing thoughts. All the time. During the day, but mostly at night in bed, which I'm sure everyone has problems with from time to time. I find myself thinking of so many things all the time, at the same time, that I forget to spend enough time on the important things. Most importantly, spending time with the kids with no outside distractions. Like tv, for instance. It's hard for me to concentrate, really concentrate on them if the tv is on in the background. I have become dependant on noise. Is that strange? Like coffee or soda, I crave distraction. I wonder why that is...I think I'll think about this for awhile and see what I come up with. I have to go now and pick up the girls from school. Later...
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